Impostor Syndrome PSA

Hey guys, I want to be honest with you, as I'm taking baby steps to be honest with myself. I've been struggling with imposter syndrome for some time, and it's led me to a shameful place of stagnation and isolation from loved ones.

I'd start planning events and photoshoots, only to let fear take over and drop them. I know I'm standing in my own way and sabotaging my success. And I hate how good I am at doing so. Shining a light on my fears feels like the only way to move forward.

So, I'm holding myself publicly accountable. I don't know what's next, but I'm tired of being scared and stagnant. Thank you to those that read this all. Thank you to those that have reached out… and could feel how much I’ve been withholding , I’m so sorry.

I don’t know how or when I became so fearful, when I was once so courageous. I used to be so fueled with vision. I used to figure out how to make my ideas a reality using anything I got; making something out of nothing.

Now, I spend way too much time in my head. And lately… seeking myself for counsel has been counterproductive. As I just convince myself that no one wants what I create—yet when I got out, I’m always being asked “when’s the next—?!”

*heavy sigh*

Overall I’m disappointed and shocked that I let myself believe these negative things for so long.