Hula Hooping: Raw reaction of hitting the same walls

I’m back in the same place. 

I hate this place.

I’m terrified and uncomfortable as hell writing this.

I feel so… I’m not necessarily shocked… 

Kinda just like wow, okay, this didn’t work

I think of these big grand creative projects

Assemble a dream team of talent

And have to stop the project when there are no funds to make it a reality

I’m gonna have to stop and really change direction

I can’t go and create another big thing

Thinking it’ll be “the one” to take me out of my current situation

I can’t keep creating out of a place of survival, right? Idk

I actually don’t know what I want to do

I have to refine and define, get specific

Choose one thing to narrow in on

I don’t know what I want that to be